What are my five fears? Gosh, where do I start? Don't we all have fear? Some rational, some, maybe not so much? Fear is a natural emotion, something we shouldn't be ashamed of. Yet, I'm almost afraid to admit mine. But nonetheless, here we go.

Failure.

I think everyone has this fear to some extent. The fear of not reaching every goal that you set for yourself, or that others set for you. The fear of not reaching your full potential or the fear of making the wrong decision that turns you down a different path. Need I keep going?

Changing For The Wrong Reasons.

I fear that someday, somewhere down the road, someone will come into my life that is bad for me, but I won't know it. Will I change my life, my dreams, my aspirations for them? Will I sacrifice myself and my happiness for someone else?

Being Alone.

Will I ever find the one? I hope so.

So I mentioned irrational fears...and I have one... or two.... ish.

I have an odd fear of the volume button on the radio/tv/computer/anything with a volume option and it being set at an odd number. This may be a tad OCD, I don't know, but it freaks me out! Irrational, right?

Cemeteries.

I hate them. I won't go near them. I wasn't always this way but it started to develop when my Grandma died before I started 6th grade. I refuse to go to the cemetery and visit the grave stones. Which is terrible and I kick myself every time but I just cannot do it. Physically cannot do it. Just a few months ago, I got up the courage, or so I thought, to go visit my grandparents gravesides after school one day. I didn't make it past the front gate. I couldn't get myself to go any further. I don't know if I ever will be able to.

So, there you go. A few of my fears. What are yours? Comment here or post them to my Facebook page!

K

This one. Always. 

the writers on Grey's Anatomy are brilliant writers and come up with some of the greatest monologues and lines and this is just one of them. 

This quote though, said by leading lady Ellen Pompeo who plays Meredith Grey, is one that has stuck with me since I first heard it. 

Even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out of never trying.

Take a moment and go back to my post on Oct. 30th. 

Can someone else's failures be your biggest motivation?

Can your own failures be your biggest motivation?

Yes.

Learn from your mistakes. Make changes. 

Knowing is better than wondering, walking is better than sleeping and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out ov never trying. 

​K

If I were to write this post a week from now, my day would be entirely  different.

My day as been non-eventful. 

I started my day at work. A 6am lifeguard shift back at my hometown YMCA, a place I haven't been since I moved to Lincoln a little over two months ago. Starting my day at the Y, seeing some of my favorite members and seeing the looks on their faces when they saw who was carrying the guard tube was priceless. 

After that, I slept, and I watched Netflix, and I slept with an icepack on my ribcage. 

For those who may not have seen my social media pages, I have bruised and possibly broken ribs on my left side. Wonderful.

I did end my day somewhat eventful by having dinner with one of my good friends from the Y which was the perfect way to start the weekend! 

​K

People who walk and or ride in the street when there is a sidewalk.

If there is a bike lane, use it. If you are going to ride your bike in the street, please try and keep a decent speed!

People who talk to me while I'm reading or writing.

This one bothers me more than it probable should but I get so engrossed in my book or what I am currently working on! Reading and writing are two of my biggest passions. When I get in to a good book... you better leave me alone!!!

BAD GRAMMAR!!!!

This is definitely my biggest one. We all make grammar mistakes, me included, but people who constantly misuse words and make other big grammar mistakes over and over again... please go take an English course at your local college.

What are your pet peeves?

K

Oh man...

What would my life be like in seven years?

Well, hopefully I am working either in NASCAR or writing for a TV show.

Big dreams... eh?

So that means I would be living either on the East Coast or the West Coast. Hopefully that means I'm not dealing with -30 below weather!

My life in seven years...

I would hope that I am married. Happily married.

Kids? Maybe.

If I do, they will hopefully be adopted because I want to give kids who don't have a home and family, exactly that, a home and a family.

My life in seven years...

I hope I am happy and successful.

I hope I am living my dreams.

I hope that I am where I am supposed to be.

K

My daily commute is pretty simple...

Home to work to home,

Yep.

That's the life I lead (See my Mary Poppins reference there).

It is about a 10 minute drive from my house to the Lincoln YMCA downtown. A straight shot. Simple.

Except for the traffic.

I go in to work at 11am and get off at 5pm.

Rush hour.

Lincoln, NE has a thing for roundabouts and they SUCK!!!

If I get to my car at 5:10...because I park in a parking garage... then I won't get back to the house until close to 5:40. Yep... half an hour, more if there is an event or an accident.

I guess that's what you get for loving in the second biggest city in Nebraska!!!

Not too exciting right?

I promise, tomorrow will be better!

K

"Would you like to order pizza and get really fat with me?" Addison Montgomery (Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice)

This one still makes me giggle when I watch the episode only because I think we all feel this way once in a while!

Everyone deserves to have that lazy day or night with their best friend where all you do is binge watch Grey's Anatomy and eat pizza and ice cream.

You had to of know that I would have put a Grey's quote in here!

"I would like to think that I will die a heroic death but it's more likely I'll trip over my cat and choke on a spoonful of frosting."

I don't know who came up with this one but it is both funny and unfortunately true. 1) I have a cat and ill hopefully always have cats. 2) I trip...a lot!

What are some funny saying that you love? Comment below!

K

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok... now that I got that out of my system. 

This pretty much sums up my relationship status.

Single.

Alone.

*Insert singing voice here* ALLL BYYY MYYSEEELLLFFF.

And you know what. I love it!

I guess you can say my current relationship status is... #InARelationshipWithGreysAnatomy

Something has to keep me entertained, right?

K